She is the girl that stares at me,
Laughs at me, despises me
She is the ghost that walks through me,
Haunts me, tortures me
She is the sun that sets on me,
Burns me and scars me
She was the girl who loved me,
Nurtured me, believed in me
She took it all away,
Broke me, strangled me
She destroyed me,
Hates me, and kills me
She is the girl that stares at me,
Turns away from me
In the mirror
The last perfect moment by tearsofbloodred, literature
Literature
The last perfect moment
Ying and yang,
The picture we create as we both stand
Closely with arms entangled,
Your face covered in sun,
And mine remains in the dark
Aware of the familiar environment around us
We search drastically for the peace
As we gaze at each other
And we find our lives in each others eyes
You walk away,
I start to cry
And ask you if I can rather walk away from you
Then Ill be ok
You deny
You walk up to me and grab me and kiss me
And I know this is right
And then, you get a chance to make me yours
And you back down, yet again
This time I will leave without your permission
And we stand, ying and yang
And I say
The past 6 weeks,
The smile has stayed constant
The past 6 weeks,
My mind has been muffled in a mysterious mist
My mood has deteriorated
My life is an endless amount of laundry,
Waiting to be picked up and cleaned
The past 6 weeks,
I've been waiting for god knows who
To fix me,
Completely blinded to the proposition that I need to fix myself
... So stupid...
The past 6 weeks,
My constant smile, has remained constant,
Because it wasn't hard to maintain a fake one
And now, standing before a mirror, I try, I practise,
The real one that doesn't have a motivation to appear,
The smile I fear Ive lost forever
An acceptable Emptiness by tearsofbloodred, literature
Literature
An acceptable Emptiness
It has been a moment of awareness,
From a year of all things reckless
Where I found you,
And you took me, you chose me
You loved me, and now...
In this unsurity, I find myself empty
Because you supressed me and now Ive lost 'me'
You made me look further, and now I cant see
You made me change, so Im a traitor to myself.
I cant focus because Ive hidden you so vividly from me
I cant cry because you hate it when I cry...
And I cant talk to you because Ive tried so many times,
And I fail, and I fall, and I lose all sense of consciousness
For you... I became a teacher, a teacher of love
And for me, you became a burden, a burden of abs
You make me feel...
Like I'm the only person in the world when you kiss me,
And when you say 'I love you'...
I wonder if the world has ever felt what I feel at that very moment.
You make me want to be perfect just for you,
So that there'll never be any reason for someone else to take my place beside you.
You are the sole purpose for my smile...It's for you
The way your hands run up and down my skin,
Makes me feel like I'm the only one you'll ever want to touch.
The way you sometimes let me in and feel your every emotion,
Lets me know you trust me.
You are my pure perfection... all mine
And in an eternity, you will still have,
E
Vanished Discretion by tearsofbloodred, literature
Literature
Vanished Discretion
Wanting to fade away,
Slowly... unnoticably...
Starving herself of everything real and wholesome
In her mind, and in the mirror, she's perceived differently
Setting goals that reach death
Or perfection in her eyes.
Those who love her, haunt her...
She despises them
It's her vanished discretion they don't understand
But until they do,
She will be forced into lies and deception,
To save herself from her facade
Open up wide
Slip inside
Enter my territory of doom
Shadows of the waning moon
Taunted, my dreams are real
To the blade, I bow down and kneel
Severed, destiny surpassed
Demonic form, my soul is cast
Bound thy spirit down
Dark godess remove thou crown
Slice you pretty face
Hideous, whilst covered in lace
She Never Understood by tearsofbloodred, literature
Literature
She Never Understood
She never understood
Why the other kids would laugh at her
Mock her and create her demise
Pain behind those broken eyes
Talk behind her burdened back
And feed upon her truthful lies
She could never understand
The comedy others saw in her facade
Why they kicked her bag and pulled her hair
She was never all there
She walked along coles everyday
Her feet were blistered and bare
She would never understand
Why her destiny was mapped out differently
Why she had to work so hard,
To keep up with the rest
Tp pursue and do her best
Through trivial errors and tests
She never understood
And never will understand
Her perfection was a
Masculine hands run smoothly along my legs
Look at me now...
I've never felt this way before
Powerful as we lean into every breath
Feeling the complete rhythm
Gently lowering our whispers
Your arms support with great strength
Look at me now...
He feels my passion
Eyes locked into a wonderland of bliss
Tearing through my soul
Finding my depth
Stroking my face in our tranquility
Look at me now...
He caresses my thoughts
Darkened forces surround your soul
All the evil takes its toll
Gliding through the sea of blood-red
The spirits on your mind do tread
Feeding on your lifeless heart
An excuse from this world to depart
A diary of whispers, open and close
You won't live, you're the one they chose
Short of any desire to live
Your powers through their drain do sive
Breathless and in no control
Killing, they fulfill their role
My eyes are warm and completely blind
It connects me to the other side
The drops of blood fade my sight
The contrast of red against pale white
Taking over my shade of skin
I'll be there soon, it will begin
Paint the World Red by tearsofbloodred, literature
Literature
Paint the World Red
Crimson and scarlet
Flowing pain form this wounded heart
Tainted black
Paint the world red
This sacrifice of life to you
Scared and unnoticed
The silence makes me more sure
I don't want to be here
To sleep amongst the blood-stained souls
Fading slowly, an ecstacy of suffering
Dripping from my fingertips
What I want
Paint the world red
Surround them with my life
Let them notice
Nothing left
Drained from body
Leave me to lay here
Cold, and lifeless
The moon and the stars cry
But for him her tears dry
The planets paint the pure reflection
They know her tranquil intention
The trees sway softly whispering love
They watch us intensly from above
The rainbows mingle their colours into black
They give her what they cant take back
Blood running on the floor
It stops for him she adores
So beautiful the mountains and waterfalls
Nature sounds her call
Surrender the heart ache
It wishes for her soul to take
He saves her from the pain
And it begins to rain
Drops of my only element
Fading in his amazement
The moon and the stars cry
Because for him they know she dies
Swept up and away
I try to release
You give me a reason to stay
But I'm dying underneath
I want to sleep forever
For it's you I see when I close my eyes
From pain I am severed
There will be no more goodbyes
It would take up an eternity
For my blood to dry
My tears are in infinity
Yet I have no reason to cry
It's a wish from the dark
A love from fire and air
It's a wound that will leave a mark
Against a skin that is so fare
Sharp and cold, piercing the skin
Separating life from death
I'm letting you in
On my last breath
With the soft radiance of the moon
And her glow that always seems to light up the room
Her eyes twinkle like the brightest stars
And her cheeks shine the red of mars
She has imperfect perfections
Yet her imperfect perfections are perfect
Words flow from her lips as if she were a celestial being
You can feel her uplifting presence, without even seeing
When she cries the heavens turn red
And the blankets of stars turn into thread
But when she smiles the galaxies dance
The people bow, and the believers hum chants
When she's around, hearts become eyes
Emotion is flooded and souls begin to rise
I wish she could see all the holes she
Yesterdays betrayel is todays heart ache. More a heart break. You can pray so hard for the things you want, but praying never works for the only true favour you've ever wanted. The only thing I want is to be excluded from this world, this crazy place, a feeding ground for the damned, searching for lost souls. My heart pushing through my tear ducts, trying to release the poison, but they just re-absorb themselves, and Im in the same position once again. Looking back I leave. I leave my life, my friends, my dad, but most of all, my soul. Everything I've ever known is gone in seconds and I find myself in the darkest place, falling deeper and dee
My Wrist Violisist
Your passion pours its music over me
You play over my skin with such grace, and admiration
Let your bow slide deeply into my skin...
The more you play
The trance of this timid piece
Enchants the both of us
Captures us, and surrounds us
In time to the music you slide
Death by beauty
Up tempo, the relief I let go
Flows from me and I sing
A sad song, my song
The song I write for you
My wrist violinist
Play your harmony
Like you play my life
Let your bow slide deeply into my core
Your music fast, and my song slow
Possessed by you
I fall asleep
I awake in an ochestra full of you
My wrist violinist
A past life left behind
Unknown but cherished
Fading as I forget
You saved the memory
You saved me
I knew you before
The echo of my mind
While your voice still remains
I didnt know you long
But I'd rather have you peaceful than in pain
Everything about you familiar
Every connection
I knew you before
He taught me about absolute optimism
He taught me that life is what you make it
He gave me hope
I knew him before
This dark room, my soul
Traps all its secrets
They hide behind my broken hreat
Visible through the crevices
And slowly eats away at my mind
I close my eyes, I need to sleep
But they're haunting me, I'm in too deep
My eyes are closed, I won't awake
I still can't sleep, so these pills I take
The world will spin, and consume my eyes
She believes he will save her, before she dies
Please, please, just take my hand
Pull me out, of what I had planned
Will you hear my hearts desparate cry?
For the mess I'm in, will you despise?
Will you catch me or let me fall?
My soul is dead, therefore rest my head...
Lay me down in my sea of red
She turns around
And leaves us behind
Transparent eyes that float
In her own mind she's right
Walking behind her, making sure
That everything in her path is unharmed
But me
Surrender me the heartache you inflict
Sharper than any blade, sever... sever...
Sever my unwanted desire to live
Scratching my eyes away just so you can stay
It's my destiny to love you, yet pain is what I have for you
Shatter, break and shred by flesh
Hunt me down while my blood's still fresh
Take it all...
...
My heartbeat too
. . . . .
slow its rhythm
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There's way too few
Surrender my soul, you surrender
Surrender my
In starlight dust
I am covered
I claim the moon
to shine for me
I rise to my feet
to honour her radius
I am baffeled
with her wisdom
I must bow
to her thrown
With her light
Pure love is shown
A darkness
her glow controls
Gives the blind
sight that grows
She smiles and
so does the world
I kneel to her
humbleness
I am proud of her
Cunningness
She speaks words to me
By just a shine
I know that, forever, I am hers
And that she is mine
Current Residence: Joburg Favourite genre of music: Metal, Goth Shell of choice: the place you take me Skin of choice: my veins Favourite cartoon character: Spongebob Square Pants Personal Quote: the tragedy within purity is the poetry in her being
Favourite Visual Artist
littlemewhatever
Favourite Movies
Ghost
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Slipknot, Diary of Dreams, Children of Bodom, trail of tears
My band is busy touring Durban at the moment and so far we've had two gigs which were amazing! There was a huge response and our crowd was wild! Still got two more to go! Very awesome!!!!!!
Hey my Black Rose, I appologise with all the tear in the sky that i have not replyed to your sms, it made my birthday to hear from you... im really broke so had no money to reply... BUT i want you to know that i miss you dearly, just visting family at moment and Lavinia and i were talking about that fun we use to have the three of us... made me really miss you alot... we had some great times... I hope you are keeping well... Lots of love!